Day 1524

Despite the loss of my beloved Arkansas Razorbacks to The Ohio State Buckeyes, my quick vacation to New Orleans and the Sugar Bowl was an incredibly fun time. Great food, great drinks, great people...what more can you ask for?!?! It was really wonderful being able to play and catch up with some of my college girlfriends...since most don't live in Little Rock, I rarely get to see any of them during my trips home. Smash, I had an especially fun time spending the trip with you! Laissez Les Bon Temps Roulez!

Day 1518

Tomorrow morning, super early, I'm flying out to the Big Easy! New Orleans for 25 hours sure sounds good to me!

Sugar Bowl, here I come! Woo Pig Sooie!

Day 1497

Saturday night I had a small birthday-eve celebration with some of my favorite girls in DC (and a few of my favorite boys too). Thanks so much for the dinner and drinks everyone! Good thing I decided to celebrate a day early, because I have been sick as a dog since Sunday afternoon. Not fun, not one bit. My birthday morning started off great, but I quickly went downhill sometime after lunch and nap time. So I'm off to buy more saltines and chicken noodle soup, and praying that tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 1465

I realized something lying in bed last night, desperately trying to fall asleep. I started this blog over 1,000 days ago. It took those first 440 day for me to even being to realize that I need to start journaling my thoughts, getting out those feelings that were building up and breaking me down.

When you put it in terms of years...a little over a year before I first started blogging, four years ago Monday when dad passed away...it seems like a long time, but not as extreme as breaking it down to days. It is hard to grasp when you are literally trying to take just make it through one day at a time. But today is the 1,465th day after dad died. Day after day after day of living in a parallel world...wow, it's just a lot to take in. 1,465 days.

I was at some good friends' wedding this weekend, and the bride is a friend who struggled and tried with all her might to get me to this place today. Or even just to open up and be human with my emotions, not this tough robot that I was perceiving for so many years. I can only imagine how frustrating it must have been living with the zombie that I had become, and I couldn't thank God more for having someone as special as her to put up with me for so long. Late that night, I sort of broke down, but it was strange...I wasn't sad, or upset, or anything negative...I was so, so happy, and it made me start to cry. Happy that I was able to share that special day with them, happy that I was able to stand there, recognize how far I had actually come, and look forward to what there is to come for me.

There are some times when you have to live your life one day at a time. I did so for at least 1,000 days of my life. But now I'm looking forward to moving past where I have to live just to get through the day, and now live for the moments, and the journey, that my life will take me.

Here are some pictures from the rehearsal dinner and wedding and of my dear friend who I couldn't be happier for. It was a fabulous weekend!

Day 1463

I have serious baby fever. Everywhere I go, everyone I meet, babies are around, and it couldn't make me happier! So lucky me, one of my very best friends had a sweet baby girl this past Monday, and I got to meet her and spend time with her this past weekend!

Meet sweet baby girl Kate Faulkner!





Actually, a few friends had babies this past week...one of them had twin boys!...but I was only able to meet sweet baby Kate. Good time to be craving some babies, because I have at least 10 more friends that are pregnant right now! I am saying many, many prayers that all these babies arrive safe and healthy, and cannot wait to meet each and every one of these sweet angels!